Aug 242015

As I walked toward a coffee shop, I noticed a beautiful young woman – in her early 30s, I’d guess – in black spandex leggings and a black tank top. She was walking a little quicker than I, but toward the same destination. I admired her ass – full, round, not small at all. Her […]

Mar 272014

I’m reminded of one of the women with whom I had a relationship back in my CPOS days. I was then as I am now in many ways: the women who sucked my cock were women I got to know, to like, to respect. The three big differences between then and now: secrecy/deception (I hid […]

Dec 072012

The hottest girl in the world (THGITW), other than my wife, had her own reply to my post the other day, about cheating and judgment, and to the responses in the comments, but since she is the hottest girl in the world (other than my wife), I thought I’d let her speak her mind in […]

Dec 052012

Lately, I’ve been observing – and feeling – all sorts of judgment. Now, when I’m at my best, I’m almost entirely non-judgmental. I don’t like judgment, don’t like judging people, don’t like feeling judged. The truth is, I think it’s rarely possible to judge someone fairly without walking a life in their shoes (forget a […]

Aug 222012

I’ve written a fair amount about my favorite fantasy and my fondest sexual memory (which together provide all sorts of information as to what Jack Morin, Ph.D. (that’s apparently his name), the author of The Erotic Mind, calls my “core erotic theme.” Lately, I’ve been thinking about a little puzzle: if my fantasies and memories […]

Jul 302012

I’m in a bit of a relationship/sexuality jag, reading-wise, and right now, I’m reading The Erotic Mind, by Jack Morin. It’s a sort of pop-psychology guide to how to think about eroticism, desire, arousal, excitement, purporting to be a somewhat scientific study of people’s responses to a survey instrument. On the one hand, it’s clearly bad […]

Jun 102012

How does an otherwise honorable person lie? And not a little white lie, but the kind of major, character-defining lie that any of us who is, or has been, a cheating piece of shit (CPOS), has told the people we love most about the things that matter most to us, to them? And why, how […]

Mar 052012

How do you relate to boundaries?  Do you stay far away from them?  Run up to them and stop just short?  Dangle a toe over them?  Sneak past them?  Bound past them?  Defy them? For some, they’re sexy; for others, scary. I spent much of my life in a dark closet.  Much of my existence […]