Serena’s fade-out
My affair with Serena is flickering out, and the pain has been overwhelming. I’ve kept my thoughts hidden, too raw and vulnerable. Now, I’m torn between rage and terror, emotions that clash with my rational understanding.
Read more
Tag: Abandonment
Fear and uncertainty in dating
I find that if I mine my interactions with, and feelings about, various women in my life, I can learn a lot of interesting stuff. Mostly around my fear and uncertainty in dating.
Read more
Lateness, abandonment, and my psychosis (a journal entry)
Serena is late, and disappoints me just a bit. Turns out, I manage it fine.
Read more
All about my mother (#2,111)
The power of the unconscious, or, how I use women.
Read more
Eating Serena
A birthday meal. And a disappearance.
Read more
Romanticization
Do I romanticize? I don’t think so. Not so much.
Read more
Epiphanies
In which I realize some things about how I’m crazy, revisiting ancient wounds of loss.
Read more
Cleo dumps me
Cleo dumped me.
Read more
I believe in ghosts
In which a woman disappears on me. As so many have done. Am I wired to make women disappear?
Read more