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• Paean

  April 24, 2026 · 1 min read

  A PAWG? Not quite. But almost….

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  Musing Post
  Paean
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  The unwritten history of misery

  April 23, 2026 · 1 min read

  Remembering my suffering.

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  Musing
  Sadness Shame
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  Missing v: a bittersweet reflection on lost contact

  April 22, 2026 · 3 min read

  I’ve known V since 2011. We aren’t in touch, and I haz a sad.

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  Memory or fantasy?
  Chatbot Dating Loss Nostalgia V
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  Trump era politics dampening libido and desire

  April 20, 2026 · 2 min read

  Trump has dampened my libido. What I initially attributed to aging, I now recognize as a response to the horror of the current political moment: it’s hard to summon desire in the middle of a national catastrophe.

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  Anxiety Deadness Trump
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  Welcome to my personal blog chatbot

  April 17, 2026 · 3 min read

  I built a custom chatbot. Ask it anything about my life, relationships, or insights. Just know: your conversation isn’t private, the corporate and environmental ethics are messy, and usage is throttled.

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  AI creative work
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  Ask n – a new chatbot….

  April 14, 2026 · 1 min read

  Ask N anything!

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• #taco

  April 7, 2026 · 1 min read

  I’m definitely not saying that I wish Trump had let loose some sort of armageddon on Iran tonight. But. The man is a master of reality TV. And. A total. Fucking. Chickenshit. Sociopath. Pussy.

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  Donald Trump Politics
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  Fun with ai, or, i’m still an addict

  March 21, 2026 · 1 min read

  I contrast my past destructive obsession with commercial sex against my current generative, productive compulsion with AI tools.

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  Musing
  Addiction AI Anxiety Compulsion Obsession Sexuality