I was reading Hy’s recent account of Mr. Young, and was reminded of one of the greatest – and worst – aspects of life for those of us who continually flirt with sex and relationships with others: there are ups and downs. We have connections, and they come apart. The stakes often are low, in reality, but they always, always feel high.
You can read back in this blog and find dozens of examples of my getting overwhelmed with excitement about some woman or other who soon disappeared, never to be heard from again.
On the one hand, this sucks. Abandonment, rejection, loss, all suck.
On the other hand, what a wealth of emotional experience I get to have in these ultimately low-risk ways. I’m constantly relearning just how much of my psychic and sexual experience takes place between my own two ears.