Aug 192012
 

This is the kind of question I have wet dreams about being asked.

But asked it I was. I gave a flip answer – “I know that you don’t worship mine enough.” And then I drew out my questioner. She followed with several more questions:

“Does paying for someone to worship your cock take away from the experience?  What do you love about it/get from it (other than the pleasurable feelings)?  [What d]o you think cock worshipers get from it?  I mean… plenty of girls like to suck cock, but what more does a cock worshiper get off on?  You’ve been with a LOT of women.  I can’t believe you haven’t come across more of them.  Do you think it’s a rare kink?”

In order:

Yes, paying for someone to worship my cock takes away from, even nullifies the experience. Worship is, by definition, voluntary, even compelled. If you truly worship my cock, you would pay me to have access to it, not the other way around.

What do I love about it? So much. Obviously, there are the pleasurable feelings. But they’re just the tip of the iceberg. I mean, on the one hand, who wouldn’t love sustained, loving attention to one’s cock, to the part of one’s body most wired for the receipt of pleasure? But on the other hand, the bulk of my sexual pleasure and enjoyment happens not in my cock, but in my head: in the land where desire for me is registered. The greatest blowjob, the funnest fuck, pales in comparison to the jolt I receive simply from knowing that you want me – and not just me, but my cock.

How is it – why is it – that desire for my cock is such a powerful aphrodisiac for me? I understand the hydraulics of my reaction to desire for me – my complete self, my desires, my physicality, my mind. I understand how and why that registers as a powerful affirmation and validation, and why that, in turn, morphs into an aphrodisiac. But why does it work so simply and effectively with respect to something as discrete as my cock? If I know that you want my cock, I will be hard for as long as you want it, as long as you worship it. And I’ll happily allow you do that for as long as you wish. And I’ll want you to do it longer. I promise.

What do I think cock worshipers get from it? I can’t know for sure, but I think the comments on this post, and what I wrote in this one, begin to hint at it. I think that when a person can put all their own desires to the side to focus on delivering pleasure to another, to consume another’s cock (or pussy), to take pleasure not just from the pleasure delivered, but from one’s own interaction with the genitals of another – as a toy – there is something almost transcendent going on. I imagine that when you’re worshiping my cock, the rest of the world recedes, and what remains is simply the psychological and physical, sensual experience of your mouth, eyes, hands, face, and my cock. You become an object for the provision of pleasure – you are doing rather than having done. And what you’re doing  has the effect almost of erasing you from the scene: though present, though in fact participating, you are doing so in a simultaneously active (you’re working, doing) and passive (your own self is virtually invisible – you are reduced to the sum of just a few parts). For many of us, this sort of receding – into a purely physical existence, and one in which our own desires are irrelevant – is deeply peaceful, even blissful.

What more does a cock worshiper get? All of what I wrote above, but magnified. In vanilla sex, oral sex is often very much either a quid pro quo – you go down on me, I’ll go down on you – or prelude to a fuck. In cock worship, the cock, its satisfaction, is the sole point. There is nothing else to be done, no “payback,” no implicit or explicit expectations beyond pleasure for the cock (and its owner).

On the final question – is it a rare kink – I have no way of knowing for sure. I note that FetLife has a group devoted to it. The group has 2,862 members as I write this, and a quick glance suggests 10-20% of those describe themselves as female. In my own life? I’ve encountered exactly two women who were genuine cock worshipers, and each was a commercial relationship. (I believe they were cock worshipers in their unpaid sex lives as well, but with me, they were paid.) In short, yes, I think it’s relatively rare.

There’s another category, another way of being – cock slut. I have the sense that this is far less rare. There are multiple FetLife groups devoted to that principle. And my participation in the world of swinging and group sex has exposed me to far more women who seem to want to have done to them than who seem to want to do.

What do you think? Do you worship cock? Has yours been worshiped? Are you a cock slut? Have you been with one?

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  24 Responses to “What do you know about cock worship?”

  1. Shit what happened to my comment? Jeez, I hate that!

  2. I’m a little iffy on the “worship” construct but that’s just me. Reminds me of a class of subs who spend so much time micromanaging their “submission” I don’t know when they find the time to suck cock. I guess a lot of me recedes when sucking cock, certainly the intellectual and emotional, hence the transcendence. But to me a lot of the recipient recedes. Maybe “recedes” isn’t the word for it. It seems inapposite to the feeling I get that both of us could not be more fully or completely present but the communication of mouth/cock, eyes, hands, scent, taste, is its own language.

    Great post. Been reading for a while but really hard to comment from Android. This was my 4th try. Text box goes crazy. Probably just my phone 🙂

  3. Let’s try this one more time.

    Do I love worshipping cock? Yes. (even self-admitted on fetlife)
    But for years I let my insecurities mind fuck me. I doubted my ability to please him orally even though he’d told me otherwise. I didn’t know that some men just can’t come from oral alone. I could count on one hand how many times he’d come down my throat. And because I’d equated his come as my only form of success, my failure plagued me.
    It took years for me to realize that the act of worshipping his cock was pleasure enough; for us both. It’s not the power, like some women crave, for me it’s the act of loving him and showing it. The caress of his hand in my hair, the sounds he makes when I take him down my throat and swallow.
    The giving of myself and not expecting anything in return. It’s a need not a want. I wish I could explain it better.

    • Good answer! (And I don’t mean that in the way it’s used on Family Feud when someone gives a really bad answer.)

      Thanks. I particularly like the “need not a want” bit.

  4. Personally I love it. I love the act of pleasing him. i love the feel of his cock as it gets harder and fuller with my attention. I love the feel of his skin, the throb in the vein, the smoothness of the head. I love everything about it. I want to please him, I need to please him….and to have him get pleasure and cum through fucking me isn’t enough. I get emotional pleasure and fulfillment out of those times when I just suck, lick, tease…etc…his dick. I love making him cum, but I enjoy giving him pleasure more. He always acts like I have done him some great service when I do it in a circumstance where he knows I expect/want nothing in return. But how can it be such a great service when I am desperate to do it? I always thank him for allowing me. It’s a privilege and a pleasure to suck his cock like that. I am honestly grateful when he gives me that opportunity. It’s not service, it’s worship.

  5. I’ve only had a very small number of cocks I’ve been able to embrace more than once, but there’s something that happens in my head every time one has passed my lips. Immediately the hot, pulsing, throbbing piece of manhood in my mouth becomes nearly the entire focus of my being. I hyper-focus on my partner. I notice his breathing, I feel him relaxing, I notice his pulse increase and his breathing quicken and his muscles start to tense. I LOVE that power. I feed on it. I feed on his increased energy, on his need, and (if I’m lucky) on his release. When I have him in my hand and in my mouth it is by my power that he feels pleasure, and by my power that he reaches his zenith. There is a rush to be had there.

    The same rush comes when I slide my lips between a woman’s legs. When my tongue parts her folds, and flicks her clit, and brings her to release after exultant release; when I feel her tense and hear her breathing quicken and her pulse races under my tongue; those are the times I feel most powerful, most vibrant, and most alive. When my tongue traces every fold, and runs laps around her hood, and flicks her in a wild frenzy, I drink in her pleasure and make it my own.

    It is oral worship, to seek such pleasure and power all rolled into one? Perhaps. I’ve never thought of it that way, though. For me it’s a craving, stronger and deeper than the strongest food craving. When I want cock or pussy in my mouth, nothing else quite satisfies. And when I bring forth that release, when I unleash that guttural moan and my mouth is flooded with the climactic result of my ministrations, I will be raging hard yet already perfectly satisfied.

    Stay SINful
    Mr. AP

  6. Mr. AP,
    What you describe is the power I was referring to…perhaps I’m just wired differently but I don’t get off on the power of it. I’m too in my head about pleasing him orally. And since I don’t like to be in control in the bedroom, power never plays a part when I’m worshipping his cock. I’m simply there to be pleasing. I’ve listened to many girlfriends talk about ‘the power’ they possess when giving a blowjob, I get what they’re saying on an intellectual level but I often feel they are missing the point. But then again, that’s just not how I think/feel about it. I lose myself in the act and I love that feeling. It’s not about me it’s about him.

  7. I never liked sucking cock, it was a chore and difficult to do. Then I met my boyfriend. I love his cock. I dream about him gagging me with it. He is bigger than all the other men i have been with, which should make me hate sucking it as it is more difficult. But I notice how I can’t wait to have it in my mouth, can’t wait to taste the precum. I love to hear the sounds he makes as I suck on his balls and then travel back to his cock. I have found that I enjoy other cocks now also. When I give a blow job I know if I am not enjoying it, they are not enjoying it. When you watch porns you can truely see who loves what they are doing and who thinks it is a chore. I don’t necessarily worship cock, but it has full attention.

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  10. As a gay male, I embraced the fact that I was a true worshiper of cock at a very young age (early teens). I wrote a blog called “Oral Cock Worship” for a few years because I wanted to describe to people how I felt about the mind/mouth/cock connection that is truly magical between a top feeder and his sub eater. Any guy who is a true oral top is God-like to me and deserving of my adoration, honor and service. There is power in the bulge!

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