As is my way, I’m baffled. I know myself (I think). I know that I’m anything but predatory.
I looked it up:
“Prey” means “to hunt and kill for food.” Well,that’s out. Seriously. I promise.
But what about that second definition?
Do I seek to exploit, to oppress?
I’m defensive. This post is defensive. I take my friend’s point at face value: regardless of how I consider myself, I appear, to at least two (I’ve heard it from one other friend, as well) to be predatory.
I guess there are multiple ways I can combat this image. First, foremost, most important: I can simply be less predatory. To the extent that my posts, my online persona, convey an interest in predation, a willingness to exploit, I can/should do that less.
Second, I can soften my image around the edges – change my avatar, maybe show myself just a bit (my eyes? my mouth?).
I thought about this third possibility today – I even went so far as to start recording a post. But I did it while I was walking down the street, and wouldn’t you know it, an ambulance came up, sirens blaring, at a crucial moment. I live in a loud city, and I’m often out and about – it may well be that any audio post I do will feature the sounds of the street. But it was a bit much.
I’d love your thoughts – both reactions to the assertion that I am/appear predatory and thoughts about the ways I’ve imagined softening my image a bit.
It’s a testament to my narcissism, I guess, that I’m so self-conscious about this, that I expose it all for you to see.
But what the hell – you came here to see me…. It’s me you get.