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• Privilege, shame, and brutality

  June 6, 2020 · 3 min read

  I can breathe.

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  Narcissism Politics

• Strength and safety, dominance and terror

  June 3, 2020 · 1 min read

  The addictive elixir of submission.

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  Dominance Fear Safety Submission Terror
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  Edges: where the action happens

  June 1, 2020 · 2 min read

  Why clothing is sexier than nudity; why lace is hotter than cotton; why fishnets appeal….

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  Bratty subs Compliance Desire Dominance Lingerie Marina Nudity Safety Submission

• I’m sensitive

  May 31, 2020 · 3 min read

  I torture myself.

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  Dominance Masochism Safety Submission

• Object permanence and fear of annihilation

  May 30, 2020 · 1 min read

  Infantile wounds leave me vulnerable to the annihilating terror of ceasing to exist.

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  Dominance Object permanence Safety Submission Terror

• Separation

  May 29, 2020 · 2 min read

  My mother abandoned me….

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  My father My mother

• Pondering punishment

  May 28, 2020 · 5 min read

  When Marina behaves badly, I want to hurt her. Well, not hurt her. But I want her to suffer. And I don’t want to suffer. And, I want her to stop behaving badly. Marina – for all her virtues – consistently behaves badly, in one particular way.

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  Bratty subs Marina Punishment Tasks
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  I owned marina’s cunt for 48 hours (part 1)

  May 28, 2020 · 4 min read

  An inauspicious start to my owning Marina’s cunt for 48 hours.

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  Memory or fantasy?
  Abandonment Anxiety Communication Compliance Distant buddies Marina