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Shame: reflections on self-acceptance over time
Read moreI’m reflecting on how shame has shaped my life and my blog since 2010 — from the radical openness I once had in writing about my most uncomfortable impulses, to the self-judgment and contempt that have crept back in now that I’m less anonymous and less self-accepting.
The ridiculousness of ai
Read moreReviewing French Fries, or, the ridiculous power of AI. Or, I’m totally obsessional.
Making a chatbot: legacy, loss, and llms
Read moreI’ve been building a chatbot to give access to my writing — not to imitate my voice, but to preserve it. This project grew from grief over my mother’s lost writings and a resolve not to leave my child without my output.
Every behavior has a reason: examining pornographic habits
Read moreEvery behavior, sexual or otherwise, contains valuable information. Lately my pornographic habits are raising disturbing new questions I’ve been avoiding — ones I plan to explore in a future post.
Trump era politics dampening libido and desire
Read moreTrump has dampened my libido. What I initially attributed to aging, I now recognize as a response to the horror of the current political moment: it’s hard to summon desire in the middle of a national catastrophe.
Welcome to my personal blog chatbot
Read moreI built a custom chatbot. Ask it anything about my life, relationships, or insights. Just know: your conversation isn’t private, the corporate and environmental ethics are messy, and usage is throttled.
#taco
Read moreI’m definitely not saying that I wish Trump had let loose some sort of armageddon on Iran tonight. But. The man is a master of reality TV. And. A total. Fucking. Chickenshit. Sociopath. Pussy. Related posts: Donald trump and libel…
Fun with ai, or, i’m still an addict
Read moreI contrast my past destructive obsession with commercial sex against my current generative, productive compulsion with AI tools.
Word clouds
Read moreThere’s just so much content here; you should be able to find stuff! This is one such (really fun) way.
I fucking love ai
Read moreNow you can browse all the pictures for any tag in one place — even as a slideshow. I’m unreasonably excited about this.
Overwhelmed by ai, drafts, and the end of the blog era
Read moreI’m producing more work than ever thanks to AI, but I’m overwhelmed by unfinished drafts, a sense of online obsolescence, and my own mortality.
Politics
Read moreFascism is here. The Democrats are responsible. They haven’t presented an alternative.
Encoding a fantasy through ai-dream symbolism
Read moreI’m using AI to turn an unshareable fantasy into a symbolic dream, drawing on Freud’s theories to preserve privacy and allow expression.
Ai porn and the fantasy of omnipotence
Read moreI increasingly find that I prefer AI-generated pornography over real-life encounters and traditional porn – it indulges my perverse fantasy of omnipotent control without the difficulties of human interaction.
Trying to write again, after a year of upheaval
Read moreAfter a year of physical, familial, and domestic disruption, I’m reflecting on my relationship to sexuality, fantasy, aging, AI, and gender in search of renewed creative flow.
Ai thoughts
Read moreChatGPT sucks, lately. Claude? It’s killing it.
Paean
Read moreA paean that graduates into something like a creep shot.
Paean, or, the limitations – and capabilities – of ai
Read moreAI can nail a face but not a feeling. Guess which one matters more to me.
A placeholder post on my compulsivity and ai porn
Read moreI’m fucking crazy. Did you know that?
Donald trump
Read moreWe elected him. He is delivering. I’m not especially interested in the pearl-clutching around his latest offense. It. Will. Get. Worse. We voted for it. He will deliver.
