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The scene at the bar, two young blondes, a sixty-something man, a fifty-something man, a forty-something man, and me
Read moreTwo young blondes at the bar, three older men circling, and me — telling myself I’m not one of them.
Too late
Read moreI should have gone there first. By the time the bar called my name, it was too late.
My fear of ai
Read moreEveryone I know is scared of AI, and I probably use it more than all of them. Here’s what actually frightens me.
I asked about your masturbation
Read moreI asked, you answered, and I didn’t love the answer. I’m a toddler: if you’re masturbating, I want you thinking about me.
Infinitude, porn
Read moreA terabyte of porn on my disk, thousands of women, and I’d still rather be hunting than looking.
Fear, sadness
Read moreI’m getting two new knees in my 50s, and I’m terrified.
Paean
Read moreThree small scotches in, sad and tipsy at the bar, cataloguing the women on either side of me.
Folly continued yet again
Read moreP emailed again, and my heart leapt again – like it always does, like an idiot.
Paean
Read moreKelly green bike shorts, a high braid, and suddenly I’m riding faster than I meant to.
On loneliness, deadness, and connection
Read moreI used to check my answering machine ten times a day. It was never about being important.
Remembering i’m alive
Read moreEvery time a woman sends me a photo, my heart leaps – and I stop believing there’s something wrong with me.
Beauty at the gym
Read moreI can’t take my eyes off the tiny blonde at Crunch. Every line I could open with sounds creepy — so I say nothing.
Mania or feeling alive: new relationship energy
Read moreI’m surfing new relationship energy again, and the disappointments are half the thrill.
Impotent power redux: conjuring fantasies for others
Read moreGangbangs don’t turn me on. But I’ve been conjuring one for Margot, and I want a very particular seat at it.
Vitality, deadness, and sexual viability
Read moreMostly I feel dead, and both my knees need replacing — then Margot, Jade, and an email from P out of the blue.
Gifting rules (dayum)
Read moreAnything I buy for you belongs to me as long as we know each other. I can see you in what I get you when I want, and I’d prefer you not wear them with other men while we’re involved.
Job description for a submissive assistant role
Read moreA job description for a submissive assistant role, outlining responsibilities, qualifications, compensation. and the application process.
Forbidden secret fantasies about margot
Read moreI can’t have this fantasy – Margot isn’t available unless I pay. So here are three versions of it anyway.
Warning: less editing ahead on this blog
Read moreI’m here for me, not for you — and I mean that in the nicest possible way. Expect more typos.
Margot wants a gangbang: trust and fantasy
Read moreI reflect on a conversation with Margot about her unrealized fantasy of double penetration and a gangbang, realizing what excites me isn’t the act itself but the trust she’d place in me to keep her safe while curating such an evening — and the gratitude that might follow.
