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• Perception

  October 2, 2019 · 2 min read

  Oddly enough, I don’t write this for you, really.

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  Thinking about my upbringing

  October 1, 2019 · 1 min read

  A brief explanation of some of my sensitivity to rejection and abandonment.

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  Abandonment My mother Rejection
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  Krishna das

  September 30, 2019 · 1 min read

  A little paean to a Jew-Bu singer who’s been with since I first meditated.

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  Meditation
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  My cmf, over time (unfinished draft from long ago)

  September 29, 2019 · 2 min read

  Early masturbation fantasies.

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  An epiphany of sorts

  September 28, 2019 · 3 min read

  Some of my thoughts about WHY I want the things I want.

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  Dominance Domination Massage My mother
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  Anticipation, frustration

  September 27, 2019 · 5 min read

  Sometimes I manage to convince myself I’m being rejected, even when I’m getting what I want.

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  Memory or fantasy?
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  Meditation on (some of) my pornographic tastes

  September 23, 2019 · 10 min read

  How I use porn to make myself feel better. (NOT how you think….)

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• The temptress

  September 22, 2019 · 1 min read

  Another among the forbidden fruits for which I currently yearn.

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  Memory or fantasy?