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• Charlotte and shelby, in my absence

  January 25, 2022 · 1 min read

  One way Shelby might make it up to me….

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  Memory or fantasy?
  Charlotte Instructions
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  Lessons from the buddha

  January 24, 2022 · 2 min read

  I carry ancient burdens.

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  Musing
  Charlotte Meditation
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  Masochism – some definitions

  January 23, 2022 · 2 min read

  I use the word “masochism” differently than you do.

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• The road back to me

  January 23, 2022 · 2 min read

  The road back to me runs through Charlotte.

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  Charlotte Instructions

• Can i make it up to you eventually – outtake

  January 22, 2022 · 3 min read

  Shelby screws me over. And wants to make it up to me. Maybe.

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• Absence makes the heart grow… ?

  January 21, 2022 · 1 min read

  It’s definitely not fonder.

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  Implosion and explosion

  January 20, 2022 · 3 min read

  Meditating helps. The addict’s mind in the face of pain and loss….

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  Musing
  Abandonment Charlotte Deadness Fear Meditation Rejection
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  Jealousy?

  January 19, 2022 · 2 min read

  What I call jealousy is really something more primitive — the fear that I’ve simply ceased to exist in your mind.

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  Musing
  Fear Jealousy