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  Implosion and explosion

  January 20, 2022 · 3 min read

  Meditating helps. The addict’s mind in the face of pain and loss….

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  Musing
  Abandonment actions Breathlessness Charlotte connection Deadness Fear Feelings Hunger Meditation Pain Rejection Shelby Touch
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  Jealousy?

  January 19, 2022 · 2 min read

  What I call jealousy is really something more primitive — the fear that I’ve simply ceased to exist in your mind.

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  Musing
  Fear In her mind Jealousy

• Owning charlotte

  January 18, 2022 · 3 min read

  Taking control of Charlotte when I’m not with her….

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  Charlotte Dominance Instructions
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  Time lag

  January 17, 2022 · 1 min read

  I’m three weeks ahead. Which means you’re three weeks behind….

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  Writing
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  Over-determined

  January 17, 2022 · 1 min read

  Poor decision-making on my part.

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  Musing
  Abandonment Acting out Desperation Meditation Poison Rejection Shelby
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  Manic writing jag

  January 16, 2022 · 1 min read

  I’m WRITING….

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  Mania Writing

• Eating well

  January 16, 2022 · 10 min read

  Phenomenal sushi – and Charlotte’s ankles tied in the air. Two fabulous meals!

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  Memory or fantasy?
  Athena Charlotte Dating Erotica
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  A realization

  January 15, 2022 · 1 min read

  Living in fear of the past….

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  Musing
  Loss My mother