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  Anticipation, frustration

  September 27, 2019 · 5 min read

  Sometimes I manage to convince myself I’m being rejected, even when I’m getting what I want.

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  Memory or fantasy?
  Anticipation Bratty subs Erotica Rachel Scotch The bar
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  Meditation on (some of) my pornographic tastes

  September 23, 2019 · 10 min read

  How I use porn to make myself feel better. (NOT how you think….)

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  Musing
  Creep shots Likes Porn

• The temptress

  September 22, 2019 · 1 min read

  Another among the forbidden fruits for which I currently yearn.

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  Memory or fantasy?
  Seduction The Temptress

• On being old

  September 5, 2019 · 1 min read

  I used to be a Zaddy. Back before that was a thing. I long to return….

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  Musing
  Age

• Dd/lg

  September 4, 2019 · 1 min read

  I’ve always said I don’t like being called Daddy by anyone whose father I’m not. But could that change?

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  Musing
  DDlg

• Hungry ghosts, powerlessness, and the delta sky club

  September 3, 2019 · 2 min read

  Paying for sex, and the Delta lounge.

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  Musing
  Commercial sex Loneliness

• Wisdom

  September 3, 2019 · 1 min read

  Wisdom often comes from unexpected places.

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  Musing
  Wisdom

• My relationship to pain

  September 2, 2019 · 2 min read

  I’m interested in pain, but don’t particularly enjoy it.

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  Musing
  Pain