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  Compartmentalization, secrets – and fear

  August 29, 2024 · 3 min read

  I walk away in fear.

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  Compartmentalization Dark Ages
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  Fear and uncertainty in dating

  August 24, 2024 · 4 min read

  I find that if I mine my interactions with, and feelings about, various women in my life, I can learn a lot of interesting stuff. Mostly around my fear and uncertainty in dating.

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  Musing
  Abandonment Fear Ghosts Leyla Milica My mother Serena
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  Reflections the day after a sex party

  August 23, 2024 · 7 min read

  More than anything, sex parties make me THINK. The day after a sex party, I’m filled with thoughts, imaginings, and reflections.

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  Chemistry Envy Masculinity Serena Sex parties Shame Side
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  Lateness, abandonment, and my psychosis (a journal entry)

  August 22, 2024 · 3 min read

  Serena is late, and disappoints me just a bit. Turns out, I manage it fine.

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  Memory or fantasy?
  Abandonment Chemistry Compliance Confidence Disappointment Sadness Safety Serena Sex parties
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  Chemistry – nyc’s best sex party

  August 22, 2024 · 13 min read

  Serena and I attend Chemistry – NYC’s best sex party – for their “Short shorts and booty T’s” party.

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  Chemistry Public Sex Serena Sex parties
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  Narcissism

  August 20, 2024 · 3 min read

  I write a blog, and have done for over a decade, so, naturally, I’m filled with narcissism.

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  Musing
  Narcissism
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  Heading back to the chemistry sex party – with serena (a portrait)

  August 17, 2024 · 3 min read

  I’m headed off to the Chemistry sex party with Serena, and I can’t. Fucking. Wait.

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  Memory or fantasy?
  Paean Serena
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  Sex party: headed back to chemistry

  August 17, 2024 · 3 min read

  I’m headed back to Chemistry, and very excited….

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  Chemistry Kinkiness Polyamory Serena Sex parties