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• Porcelain doll

  August 6, 2015 · 4 min read

  She looked like a porcelain doll — red lips, red hair, pale skin. I thought we’d become friends. Turns out I’d only ever been a customer.

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• The cos

  August 4, 2015 · 3 min read

  Bill Cosby was a childhood hero of mine. I’m trying to figure out what to do with that now.

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  Musing

• Am questions

  August 3, 2015 · 2 min read

  Some questions about Ashley Madison, vigilantism, terrorism, and the particular way my mind works.

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  Ashley Madison Compliance

• Aging

  August 2, 2015 · 2 min read

  My body is reminding me I’m mortal, and my brain is responding in predictable, if unsettling, ways.

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  Death Fantasy Mortality Youth

• Missing sofia

  July 26, 2015 · 2 min read

  A scorching video from Sofia, and a detailed account of what it did to me.

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  Memory or fantasy?
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• Question – meditation

  July 26, 2015 · 2 min read

  Bad choices equal not feeling. Meditation equals feeling. I’m two scotches in.

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  Meditation Questions Scotch

• Le trapeze, 2015

  July 25, 2015 · 2 min read

  I keep going back to New York’s oldest sex club — not because it’s hot, but because somewhere deep in my soul I think sex is bad, and at Le Trapeze, sex is everything.

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• A quick thought on ashley madison

  July 22, 2015 · 1 min read

  Monogamy is hard. Ashley Madison is easy.

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  Ashley Madison Monogamy