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Episode 9: postscript (version 2 – outtakes)
Read moreEvery silver lining has a cloud. The alcohol got away from me at the end, and what had been a truly spectacular day ended sloppily.
Thinking thinking thinking
Read moreFumbling our way forward, Charlotte and I….
Episode 9: the aftermath
Read moreComing apart, just a little, afterwards….
On being stood up
Read moreIn which I’m stood up by a woman I’ve yet to meet.
Suffering abandonment
Read moreCharlotte’s leaving me – at least for an evening. And, good girl that she is, she’s taking care of me in her absence. But it’s NOT easy.
Sharing submission
Read moreMaking myself comfortable in the face of loss and abandonment.
On jealousy and writing (a fragment)
Read moreSometimes, I hold back when I write. Or, I don’t write, out of holding back.
Melrose’s place
Read moreThe final tantalizing, unsatisfying part of a date with Charlotte.
Texts i’m always happy to receive
Read moreIt’s really easy to step away from me in a way that won’t hurt me. Please – don’t hurt me.
Trauma bond
Read moreHow I use Charlotte to revisit my painful past. Not her fault, but….
Contested history, memory, and the body
Read moreAnother part of my mother’s abandonment of me, of my loss of safety.
A few more thoughts on arrogance
Read moreBoth sides, now.
Anger
Read moreWhat is it that makes me REALLY angry?
Kerfuffle
Read moreThe other side of the “I’m arrogant” story.
Charlotte has questions for me
Read moreI wrote this a while ago, and somehow never posted it. Charlotte had some questions for me, after reading about Anal Ava.
Catching up on charlotte
Read moreListening to Charlotte’s pleasure.
Hey jealousy
Read moreJealousy’s a bitch, no?
Hope delivers (part 2)
Read moreAnd now? Hope does come for me.
Hope delivers (part 1)
Read moreHope comes to me (and, in part 2, will come for me….)
Hope looms
Read moreHope is on her way. The anticipation – and the uncertainty – is killing me.
