Cunt dreams
Just what is it I’m scared of? Same old same old…. Shame. Abandonment. Loss.
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Tag: Loss
Sadness and porn
Looking at porn to feel sad.
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Missing Serena
I happen to know that I’m less than a block from Serena. I’m tempted to shoot her a text, to[…]
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Serena’s fade-out
My affair with Serena is flickering out, and the pain has been overwhelming. I’ve kept my thoughts hidden, too raw and vulnerable. Now, I’m torn between rage and terror, emotions that clash with my rational understanding.
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Rethinking Marina
‘Tis better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all?
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An epiphany, of sorts
Reconciling myself to the inevitability of imperfection, the certainty of loss.
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Epiphanies
In which I realize some things about how I’m crazy, revisiting ancient wounds of loss.
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A few random thoughts on anger
Thinking about fucking. And anger. Mostly, anger.
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First impressions, again
When women disappoint me once, they almost always do it again. And again. And again. And still? I keep going back for more. Though less than before.
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More on loss – and fear
My crazy experience of loss and fear.
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