Alive vs. dead
I’ve been investing in myself with more solitary, even solipsistic, forms of sex and sexuality. Maybe this is a little bit about my growing older… All I know is that there’s a distinct shift and ebbing.
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Tag: Deadness
Reflections on Mortality and Vitality
Fourteen years since climbing out of the wreckage, and I’ve never felt more alive—despite the limp, the pain, the aging. Death is a constant companion, sure, but so is desire, vitality, absurd good fortune, and the bittersweet weight of knowing I’m right at the peak.
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A sense of aliveness
I feel alive.
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Directing my own porn
I would make a great porn director, don’t you think?
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COVID, or, feeling alive, or, irony
I’m not immune to COVID.
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Epiphanies
Aha! Or, duh!
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Implosion and explosion
Meditating helps. The addict’s mind in the face of pain and loss….
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How do you know you’re alive?
I contend with an omnipresent sense of deadness.
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Recording my stretching sessions
I want you. Forever.
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