Addiction

A terabyte of porn on my disk, thousands of women, and I’d still rather be hunting than looking.

I want infinite porn, and I mean infinite – and I think the moving on is the whole point.

I contrast my past destructive obsession with commercial sex against my current generative, productive compulsion with AI tools.

Reconciling myself to the inevitability of imperfection, the certainty of loss.

Matthew Perry was extraordinary, or, the wisdom of addiction.

I drink too much.

Marina finally sets a boundary, and I’m relieved.

It is a safe bet that if you are exciting me, turning me on, making my cock hard, you are not alone.

Does the word “mania” mean what you think it does? Here’s what it means to me.

I’m a hungry ghost, desperately seeking certain feelings, desperately seeking to escape other feelings.