Ghosts
I hate being ghosted. It shakes my sense of connection, judgment, and even cosmology.
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Cunt dreams
Just what is it I’m scared of? Same old same old…. Shame. Abandonment. Loss.
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How can I make it up to you? (Reflective version)
A slightly more reflective reflection on how Serena can make it up to me
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How can I make it up to you?
My feelings were hurt
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Serena’s fade-out
My affair with Serena is flickering out, and the pain has been overwhelming. I’ve kept my thoughts hidden, too raw and vulnerable. Now, I’m torn between rage and terror, emotions that clash with my rational understanding.
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Fear and uncertainty in dating
I find that if I mine my interactions with, and feelings about, various women in my life, I can learn a lot of interesting stuff. Mostly around my fear and uncertainty in dating.
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Lateness, abandonment, and my psychosis (a journal entry)
Serena is late, and disappoints me just a bit. Turns out, I manage it fine.
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All about my mother (#2,111)
The power of the unconscious, or, how I use women.
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Eating Serena
A birthday meal. And a disappearance.
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