Narcissism

I was rejected today. Not by a woman, but in a completely non-sexual, comprehensive, totalizing – and damning – way. It’s striking to me – not new(s), but still striking – how powerful is my reflex in an instance like…

As I’ve written previously, one way of understanding narcissism isn’t as “incessant, adoring self-regard,” but instead, as “the centrality of the regulation of self-esteem in the conduct of one’s life.” This is me. I emerged into adulthood with the twin…

Who are you? During a recent 24-hour period, almost 20% of my visits were by very frequent readers, people who return over and over to this blog. Evidently, what I write consistently interests, or arouses, or pisses off, these folks.…

I just went back and re-read some of the posts in the “My Story” section of this blog. If you haven’t read those posts, you really should, just because they do a pretty comprehensive, if not exactly linear, job of…

A loyal reader (and awesome fellatrix) recently wrote, in response to this post: *This* is why I keep coming back. I love the endless self reflection, the unpacking. Sex is the lens or the journey, its really about your brain,…

Earlier today, I posted some definitions of words, or rather, not so much “definitions” as a guide to how I use those words, to what they mean to me. I defined “compulsion,” and “addiction,” and “acting out.” Here’s another one,…

In my eternal, narcissistic quest to learn what you (readers) like, what you don’t like, I’m trying a new plug-in on the blog that lets you “rate” everything – posts, comments. I would really appreciate it if you (especially regular…

My new internet crushes, Nic and Lace, have written a response to my “Pack a bag” post, yesterday. Which, incidentally, I wrote on my phone on the subway yesterday morning, my cock hard all the way…. Because I want you…

Today, someone in Miami (you know who you are) discovered my blog, and read 28 pages. I fucking LOVE it when someone finds something seriously compelling, seriously diverting, here. Even though I don’t know this person, I feel totally validated…

Last night, I had a “fight” – I think – with a distant buddy of mine.  I’m not sure what happened, exactly, except that I have the sense that I said something that was a bit insensitive, and it upset…