Object permanence and fear of annihilation
Infantile wounds leave me vulnerable to the annihilating terror of ceasing to exist.
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Thinks I think
Separation
My mother abandoned me….
Read morePondering punishment
When Marina behaves badly, I want to hurt her. Well, not hurt her. But I want her to suffer. And I don’t want to suffer. And, I want her to stop behaving badly. Marina – for all her virtues – consistently behaves badly, in one particular way.
Read moreSex and sadness and happiness
For me, sex is best tinged with a bit of sadness. Sadness provides an edge.
Read moreAbandonment, #5,244 (another version)
Same song, different day, AGAIN.
Read moreAbandonment #5,423
Same song, different day.
Read moreChicks in masks are hot
That’s all.
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The edges of compliance
In which I reach (one of) Marina’s limits.
Read moreBidet toilets
I never wipe my ass.
Read moreOn quantity
I want so MUCH…. [first in a series of post fragments]
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