Porn

We’re emerging from a difficult period, and all I can think about is how I want to see her.

Playboy taught me wrong, and then porn corrected me. But when it comes to pictures, I’m still my younger self: show me everything, but hide the grail.

Beautiful women masturbating — and the complicated question of whether I want them to know I’m watching.

I fear your desire, and I fear your desire for me, and my brand of dominance is a clever end-run around both.

A scorching video from Sofia, and a detailed account of what it did to me.

Sofia sends me a video, and I lose my fucking mind.

Distance makes the cock grow harder. Sofia and I will never meet, but I refuse to believe that.

What I like in porn, and why, hasn’t changed much over the years. It’s the progression that gets me.

Walking past a porn store, I remember the soul-crushing hours I spent in places like it, gazing at box covers in a dissociative haze, searching for a fix that would never come.

The thrill isn’t in the image — it’s in the compliance. A catalog of the personalized porn women send me, and how I actually consume it.