When I was fifteen, I went on a trip to Israel in a group of about fifteen other teenaged Jews. Several of the boys among us (thought we?) coined the expression “on the bus,” to describe the nearly constant phenomenon of vibration-induced erections. Urban Dictionary supports the notion both that we coined the expression, and that it’s a ubiquitous experience, with the expression “bus boner.”
Cialis has brought the sensation of being “on the bus” back to me. For the first time in decades, I find my cock stiffening in response to vibrations, jostling, bouncing. It’s pretty fucking nice.
I wonder, sometimes, about the internal sense of “deadness” that I contend with – whether it dates to my infancy, to my toddler-hood, or to my late adolescence. I’m not sure. But I do know that nothing counters my sense of deadness more effectively than a good old stiffy. That, and the sensation of touch, particularly, but not exclusively, from a woman.
I’m pretty sure that’s how so many of my troubles began: with a combined sense of internal lifelessness and a vitality that flows through flesh.
I just read an article about past life regression. Since you are at a loss for figuring out when it stems from, maybe it’s worth looking into? I know it can seem far fetched and would understand hesitation in your part.
Just food for thought!
XO