Firsts

Club magazine, Playboy, and Color Climax: a prepubescent education in escalation — and the discovery that porn’s real function was never to satisfy hunger, but to activate it.

For years, I never fucked another woman — not out of principle, but because fucking was never the thing I wanted. Then that started to change.

CraigsList, hotel rooms, and the education of a sexually self-aware man, one blowjob at a time.

My first paid blowjob involved a bait-and-switch, a dark room, and a technique that should be patented.

A Saturday afternoon, a Village Voice, and a pay phone: the mechanics of my first paid sexual encounter.

My origin story, retold — how lap dances, fear of rejection, and an endless appetite for contact sent me down a path I’m still mapping.

She was the first woman who seemed not to be reluctantly agreeing, but aggressively pursuing, sex. We fucked seven times.