Abandonment

Maybe Marina isn’t so brutal and sadistic after all…. Maybe I am the brutal, sadistic one.

Didja ever get a blank postcard?

I’m learning how to take care of myself when Marina leaves, and when she returns. Her presence is delicious; her absence can be torture.

I use dominance and submission to achieve an elusive sense of safety.

I’m a big fan of clear, respectful communication.

My core masturbatory fantasy has shifted. It’s much less bodily, much more mental; much less sensory, much m

Sophia burned hot, bright, and fast.

My mother left me, and I can’t stop remembering it.

I hate it when you leave me. Here’s how to make it (less un)bearable.

I’m vulnerable.