On a meditation retreat, I come face to face with my warped perceptions and projections.
Not to take anything away from this blog, or its readers, but I haven’t really missed you. (Winking smiley face.)
An examination of all of the sensations associated with rejected or abandoned. Or imagining I have been.
I’m in pain, with little hope of relief. Ever. And it seems to be producing some intense emotions in me.
In Buddhist thinking, there are “five mental hindrances.” According to Wikipedia, the Buddhist scripture with which I’m most familiar, these hindrances “hinder progress in meditation and in our daily lives.” When I meditate (currently, forty-five minutes a day, at least), I pay close attention to which of these hindrances is/are most present. The hindrances are […]
“When you start to drift into a situation where you might make bad choices, you stop and meditate? I understand the value of daily, routine prayer or meditation, but I guess I don’t see the connection to things that occur randomly throughout the day. A very benign example is that commuting to and from work, […]
I spend a lot of time thinking about the future. When I meditate (and other times, too) I sit. I follow my breath. And if I’m paying attention, I notice when my thoughts turn away from my breath. Sometimes, they turn to some other aspect of my momentary experience: my shoulder hurts, my foot’s asleep. […]
Part 2: Buying a pack Down that vortex, I’ve made whatever compromises with myself I need to cross the threshold, to buy the pack. This part of the process is unpleasant all around. Except for the impending fulfillment. As I approach the vendor, I feel shame and embarrassment. I’m one of those people, those people […]
Part I: Craving I began this post, “I found myself wanting…” but I realized that “wanting” is an entirely amorphous state, a way of articulating a mental and bodily phenomenon that obscures, rather than reveals, its own essence. The question is, how do I know that I want, what is wanting? There are, for me, […]