Does sex addiction exist? Am I a sex addict? Was I a sex addict? Does it even matter what words I use to describe my experience?
It’s true. Days go by without my cock stiffening. For some, this would just be a curious deviation from the norm. For me, it’s like death. Honestly. If a day goes by and my cock doesn’t grow hard, I start to wonder if I’m still alive. I start to look for things I can do […]
“You really are difficult,” Sofia wrote to me. She’s right, of course. We were talking about how I respond to the sensation of being desired.
I was rejected today. Not by a woman, but in a completely non-sexual, comprehensive, totalizing – and damning – way. It’s striking to me – not new(s), but still striking – how powerful is my reflex in an instance like this. Longtime readers can probably guess just what it is that the news made me […]
Blaming addicts for their addictions is unhelpful. It is not “true” to say that Philip Seymour Hoffman was selfish; it’s a judgment, a subjective claim. I was harsh in reply to something Dumb Domme – a super smart, very thoughtful, and very funny writer with whom I disagree occasionally (or more accurately, who disagrees with […]
Philip Seymour Hoffman’s death has hit me hard. Inexplicably so. Or maybe not so much so. Like he was, I’m an addict. To cigarettes and nicotine, for sure. And to sex, and secrecy, to the extent one can be addicted to those things. He was just about my age. And my own mortality has been […]
I was reading about addiction, and I stumbled on a TED-X talk by Glennon Doyle Melton, a writer with a blog, and the author of Carry On, Warrior, a book that seems mostly culled from her blog. I was intrigued at least thrice over: first, most intensely, because – well, there’s something about her. She’s […]
Over the last couple of years, I’ve had two connections – with L and with V – that have been unlike anything previous in my life. (The relationship I had with the Historian was similar, structurally, though it was shorter, less intense, less comprehensive.) These were connections with women who submitted to me gleefully, who […]