Being wanted but not needed? Or being needed but not wanted?
For me, I think, I don’t tolerate being wanted and needed so well. I seem to conjure – repeatedly – situations in which one or the other of these two seemingly suboptimal circumstances applies. Each causes its own specific reaction in me. Neither is, by any measure, pleasant. Clearly, though, I crave them both.
And what of the inverse? Wanting but not needing? Needing but not wanting? In these instances, I suppose much depends on whether I get, whether I have. If I have or get that which I want, generally, all is good. Unless what I want is self- or otherwise destructive.
And what’s the fucking difference between the two, anyway? I seem not to know the difference, often. Particularly when it comes to relationships.