Mar 122015
 

It’s true.

Days go by without my cock stiffening.

For some, this would just be a curious deviation from the norm.

For me, it’s like death.

Honestly. If a day goes by and my cock doesn’t grow hard, I start to wonder if I’m still alive. I start to look for things I can do to make it hard.

And after two days?

I’m in full-on panic mode. I start to feel dead.

This isn’t good.

If three days go by, there’s a not-insignificant part of me that begins to imagine I am dead.

Let me be clear: I’m not exaggerating. This is, sadly, a psychic reality for me. I do believe I’m dead on a very fundamental level when my cock isn’t hard. This sits at the core of my years-long compulsive sexual behavior. A desperate attempt to feel alive.

I suspect many addicts recognize this sensation, the feeling of death that our drug or behavior of choice oddly both counters and reinforces.

  One Response to “Sometimes my dick isn’t hard”

  1. this can happen as we get older !

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