Nov 022014

As I descended the stairs into the subway – a particular stairway at a particular station – I was overcome with a powerful memory. It was a memory like a smell memory – overwhelming, totalizing, transporting. To a lifetime ago.

I remembered the dissociation, the shame, the emptiness, of what I used to do before descending these stairs.

And in the way that such memories can go, it wasn’t just a memory. It was an experience. I didn’t remember how I felt back then, I felt how I felt back then.

  One Response to “Muscle memory”

  1. Sounds like an unforgettable experience, wish you a good week ahead!

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