The comments – always thoughtful – as well as a few back channel communications by e-mail – got me thinking further.
“Faking it” is, I suspect, unhelpful as a concept here. The question I meant to ask, and that I believe Luna implied, wasn’t whether the orgasms themselves were faked, but whether the vocalizations preceding and accompanying the orgasms were performed.
As I thought about this, it seemed to me even this isn’t quite the right way to frame the question – at least not the questions I find most interesting.
The questions I find most interesting are: first, how does the orgasm submitted to me by a woman compare to an orgasm she might have on her own, in the privacy of her bedroom? And second, how “authentic” are the recorded vocalizations?
On the first question, I assume there are differences in the sounds of orgasms in different circumstances. My orgasms sound different in different circumstances. When I’m masturbating alone it’s different than if I’m masturbating next to you while you sleep; when I’m masturbating next to you while you’re watching it’s different than when we’re each masturbating simultaneously. When you’re on video, it’s different. And so on. And so on. So I just assume that submitted orgasms differ from solo orgasms. How is an interesting question, and I wish it were possible to know, other than by report.
It’s the second question that’s more knotty: what is “authentic”? What does it mean if you moan because you think moaning will turn me on? When I paid for “massages,” there was no worse turn-off than a fake “ooh, baby” from a woman soullessly tugging on my cock. But if she seemed genuinely aroused? And gave voice to that? It might just be enough to bring me over the edge, trumping my vaunted self-control.
When a woman sends me her orgasm, is it “inauthentic” if she’s vocalizing to turn me on, in part? Because the thought that the sounds she’s making will make my cock hard(er)? I don’t know.
I will say this. It never occurred to me, with a single orgasm that’s been sent to me, that I was hearing something other than an authentic communication of a woman’s erotic experience.
To those of you who’ve sent me orgasms – what do you have to say on this subject? Were you “phony moaning”? “Faking it”? (And thank you, Lilly, for anticipating this request – and fulfilling it. You know there will always be a welcome home here for your juicy, loud orgasms.)
I really really want to know.